Off to St. Louis early tomorrow morning for our annual family camp out until Sunday night. Kind of really nervous and guilty about leaving my mom, but I know things will be alright…or at least I hope so. She seemed in better spirits today…more alert. She complimented my glasses, squeezed my hand really tight and held it for awhile, and smiled at me a few times (which she doesn’t seem to smile much these days). <3 It made my heart happy! :) You would think the fact that she seemed better would make it easier to leave her, but it doesn’t. I just don’t like not being there and not knowing firsthand what is going on. I’m really excited for the camp out because it’s always the highlight of my summer…I’m just nervous. I hope these feelings subside a little once we get there. I’m making sure we call every night to check-up on my mom, and all…I just wish everyone was going this year. I’m just sad tonight about leaving her. I should stop rambling now, pack, and go to bed…
